“What they left behind” – 06/26/21

I didn’t get much sleep that night. My mom snored in the bed with me, she had insisted that we had to have a ‘sleepover’. I can’t imagine how hard that must of been for her. Here I had just gotten home for almost 3 weeks in the hospital and then we were immediately packing my bags for a month long recovery program. I had cried the night before saying that I didn’t want to go, that I couldn’t. She looked me dead in my tired eyes and with a serious face said “I will fucking do anything for you”. So we packed my clothes, toiletries, and miscellaneous things. We cuddled and cried while she rubbed my back. I said goodbye to my dogs, my house, my life and got picked up the next morning at 4 am. I remember being silent for the entirety of the car ride. Not sure exactly where I was headed or exactly what I was doing. Just knowing that my mom believed in this program, that it was the right thing for me.